Please push me down from the hill!

This is the famous phrase that been used by Mrs D, me and my other pal. Lol. There was a reason why we invented it. We were started to be "build" up the fat many years back then. So we used to go to many things in order to make sure ourselves were not getting biggy jumbo! It's been such issue from the last ten 10 years and now we can't stop it. LOL + sigh!

One day, we had a dinner that been arranged by our college. So obviously we went there. But there was unlucky moment where a friend of mine accidentally slipped her leg into a small drain. Her leg was broken! So she's being hospitalized..but she still managed to take the final exam with that condition. Wut a spirit!

I think if that happened to Mrs D and me, we gonna take the MC for sure! hehe..Back to my friend..she's our close friend..she sort of chubby..more chubby than us in that TIME..lol.

P/S: we only a bit chubby in that time not like now on. LOL.

BUT.....ever since she got that broken leg..I mean she had to be hospitalized..and those things..



She became slim okay! We were so jealous bcuz of that. She never ever been chubby again after that no matter how much she ate.

So whenever we saw some small hill with a drain..whether we went to the cafe..or we went to the class..or any around of our campus...we  would say "please help me..please..please..please push me down from the hill!" LOL. This remained as one of our "legendary" till now on. As for my friend who broke her leg..she became a successful engineer now on..I'm so happy for her. BUT...there is one thing that make me  in such green eyes..she remains slim!

The Drama Queen

I wanted to post something funny last night but I did fall asleep right after I made the 2nd post as I was pretty tired while writing & weeping. When I'm thinking on it back..how tragic it was..LOL! What a drama queen of me. I think I was so super stress bcuz of yesterday's incident..besides I had to make jokes with my 2nd liner which is hurting me that much.

Actually, the main reason why I feel that way is bcuz she used to talk bad about my friend...gave some mimic..so obviously I wish I have no connection who love to "abuse" my friend! But when I had to make some out side's work interaction with her..it made me hurt.

Today is much better than yesterday..I just hope that project could be implemented before the freeze period...and only then I could have such ease mind to have my super block leave. 

When I re think about it...it's fine..it just that I'm pretty lonely in the office..but I still have my close friends..it's only in the office..so My life is still colorful :) 

Again!!!

I had a super rough day today. Two people from the support team asked me to help them to restore some production files. It happened due to some missing info in production. I couldn't say no as "they" came to me unexpectedly. Besides, if I say no..this is a big issue for our bank..and of course it will harm my name to my superior bosses.

But my team lead insisted that I shouldn't do it. So just imagine how hard my situation was. At the end of the day I did lead them to talk to each other..I didn't do it for the support team as she clearly said no. One thing for sure, my team lead was super mad to me. It's not my fault. I couldn't afford to be blamed for being the main reason not to restore the production files as soon as possible...besides, if this happen it will drag a big issue to the auditor. 

I feel so super xxxx..why should they have some problem that has something to be done with me..urghh..now my team lead is so mad to me. She may think I like to object on her words..

Suddenly, I feel exactly the same way-- super empty--when I was so new..one year ago..when I made the first step in this office. But I think this time worse...seriously it's worse..This is the first time in my career life I feel like this.

Of course I made a joke to my 2nd liner a lot. but actually it just to cover my true feelings and I was about weeping for the whole day. That's why I kept making the joke..so whenever I saw her laughing, I just could hold and hide the tears in the bottom of my heart. But the worst part it makes my heart bleeds very well when I made the joke to some who...hurm..

I'm sort of not interested to deal anything that has any connection between olive and sisters. So I keep myself in such distance from them. Hurm..I may feel like this bcuz I was so super stress with those people today..But when I re think again..it still nice..cuz although I'm in that super empty heart..at least I don't have to deal with any one of them. Some of them  may think I'm that icy.. but seriously I don't mind to mix up with any body but since these boys have so many things to be done with them..so I stay away.

I'm not being so bothered any more on wut they did to me but of course I will never forget. If I close to them that's mean I have to deal with olive & sisters again..which is a super big no to me!

I think I won't be so long in this bank..I'm gonna make a move after  I finish my bond..or at the maximum..after one year from that...

Read Between The Line

I have so many things to be written. Let me start with the sad part and I'll end up with a bit funny post. Ok, now I'm into the main part.

Normally I'm totally good in the "read between the line part". I could guess very well -- 90% on what happen around me. For what ever it is...whether the person got mad on me..any etc..I remained cool without making any reflection that could let the others knew that I did understand the real message. But..I think I lost the sense already.

It happened when my friend told me that I didn't have to be at the airport to give her one last good bye for this year. I kept telling her that I wanted to be there but she kept telling not to. Seriously for me I really wanted to be there. I always be with my friends till the end..

So lastly I told her that I was not going there..To be very honest I didn't go there bcuz I do respect on her privacy very very well..I don't want her bf feels awkward if I was there..or it could lead such small argument between them..well, I love my friend so I want she feels ease in all way..

But one other friend told me actually she gave an opposite hint bcuz we used to give double meaning. urghh..I don't know..For wut ever it is, I still feel that sad for not being there..but I choose for her comfort. Seriously I wish all my close friends could tell me on their true feeling as sometimes I lost my sense!

Yesterday, I posted a pict and I put "come back for good next year okay".  It's the "read between the line" from me to her. Actually I want to say to her..have a very nice rest..I know she's "tired" with few things at first..I also wish to say "rest..and clear your mind".. so when everything is being solved..please come back for good next year!

I wish all the best things for all my friends..I'm always be there for everyone of you..I'll hold your hand through thick and thin for ever after...

My lappy was broken

There are lot of things to be written here but my dearest lappy was "sick" and still not so fine. I need to fix her! I wish I could take MC and spent for hours to fix the errors...I wish..