I'm having this blog ever since 2007 but I think I never made so many postings although I felt like to do it. It sort of magic when I have the passion to write this much. I even feel surprise for my own self. LOL. It sort of I'm not being with myself. I prefer to choose words rather than writing. Hurm...I was analyzing my own self..why??
After thinking around 1 minute I think I did configure it out why. This happened bcuz I only come out with less than 50 words in office daily. It's for the job's related but for the personal e.g stupid jokes = almost none!! Sometimes I did if I felt super duper bored but with the half happy heart. wooooooo...
I consider myself as a talkative & I always made the stupid jokes. I'm that person for the whole of my life...and when I came to my current company I felt like dying as I couldn't find any good chemistry to do stupid jokes and it worsen as the olive and sisters came to my life. But it's going a lot of better as my "neighbor" is fine enough. I could do many stupid jokes to her so my life was enlightened.
I don't need 100 people to make me happy. It just enough if I have a few number of friends only as long as he or she is personally nice. & for sure I'm gonna try my best to treat my friends in the same way too.
But....the good things won't last longer..my boss asked me to move to another place where I have to face olive for more than 8 hours. Damn it.
But I think it's good enough for my friend as she doesn't need to be the victim of my stupid jokes any longer!
My boss is at my back, the project manager is in the same cube..and my team mate sits next to me. Hurmm..I think my team mate is fine but there is one big thing that I couldn't accept. I wish that one big thing never happened so it won't be this complicated.
See how perfect my surrounding is. LOL. So obviously I'm being silent till now. I felt like crying to sit there seriously. I couldn't bear my anger whenever I saw olive. It's really killing me! & I have no mood to make such joke to the others.. Since I have so less word to be blurted so I'm shifting all my words to this spelling form. hehe..
woo..the chicken farm remains here...erkk..I think I need to clean up my room now. Actually it reflects well on how my mind looks alike now..LOL...wut ever it is I need to do the clean up now!! Gambate (work hard!) LOL..I think this so chronic as I need to do some motivation at this level to my own self just for the room cleaning..LOL + sigh~~
Saturday, July 28, 2012
I'm so damn shocked!
As I'm burning the midnight candle I was checking my previous blogs which I left since 2008. The main reasons why I left them were I furthered my studies and I felt so tired to do the SEO part manually without any cheating. No white hat..no black hat. It just pure SEO and they are my 100% original idea + writing. I have to admit it was so hard to get viewer although I did write every day and I fed up (at the earlier time).
I left them for good and remove all the codes so they won't poison my earning. But when I checked the stat I was so damn shock. There are lot of comments, good feed back of course and they are for 2012. It's so so so so shocked man! I didn't write any single word there but they still could be accessed!! I mean in term of google search. ooooooo...that's mean I wasted a lot of money already since I removed the codes 4 years ago.
The readers were still there even YESTERDAY! what should I do now? Should I flip them and get such instant money? or should I come back and write again? So they are going to be my long lasting money machine. I still could earn although I'm sleeping but of course I have to maintain in order to ensure the pricing won't be cut or else it's gonna be some dime only...wut should I do?
I left them for good and remove all the codes so they won't poison my earning. But when I checked the stat I was so damn shock. There are lot of comments, good feed back of course and they are for 2012. It's so so so so shocked man! I didn't write any single word there but they still could be accessed!! I mean in term of google search. ooooooo...that's mean I wasted a lot of money already since I removed the codes 4 years ago.
The readers were still there even YESTERDAY! what should I do now? Should I flip them and get such instant money? or should I come back and write again? So they are going to be my long lasting money machine. I still could earn although I'm sleeping but of course I have to maintain in order to ensure the pricing won't be cut or else it's gonna be some dime only...wut should I do?
2 am
It's 2 am now to be precised but I'm burning the midnight candle. Urghh...What should I do? Well I guess I'm thinking that much. I need to do many postings then to organize my mind. For the very first of all, I'm so happy to complete the prayer as it's only for once per year.
To many things to be done by one person which is me........I need to learn the system + to be so good in Cobol in a short time. I think this is the last quest to find the satisfaction in my career as I switch from the latest technology to the old one. I need to be that fast as I need to jump to the higher level..Come on you can do it!! errr...typing those words are much easier rather than implementing it. LOL.
2. I need to get my original shape..take out these superior fats..Again...it's easier to be written than doing it.lol. I wish tomorrow morning when I wake up I'm being slim already so I could say "ahh....it's only a nightmares for last week. LOLOL.. I wish..I wish..My very best friend gave some sarcastic words (of course in jokes) "hey it's ok, just do it when you are 40..so you'll get a lot of time in order to be slim" ahahahahaha...damn it!
3. Soul mate quest. Err I think I need to resolve the number 2 problem first. hehe. I'll make a posting for this one.
4. Make sure my part time income is much higher than my salary. I need to do it for my parent. I'll also make a new posting for this as it's gonna be a bit complicated.
This life is so funny. We could control a bit if the problems come from us, do something to resolve them... but what if they caused by the others?
To many things to be done by one person which is me........I need to learn the system + to be so good in Cobol in a short time. I think this is the last quest to find the satisfaction in my career as I switch from the latest technology to the old one. I need to be that fast as I need to jump to the higher level..Come on you can do it!! errr...typing those words are much easier rather than implementing it. LOL.
2. I need to get my original shape..take out these superior fats..Again...it's easier to be written than doing it.lol. I wish tomorrow morning when I wake up I'm being slim already so I could say "ahh....it's only a nightmares for last week. LOLOL.. I wish..I wish..My very best friend gave some sarcastic words (of course in jokes) "hey it's ok, just do it when you are 40..so you'll get a lot of time in order to be slim" ahahahahaha...damn it!
3. Soul mate quest. Err I think I need to resolve the number 2 problem first. hehe. I'll make a posting for this one.
4. Make sure my part time income is much higher than my salary. I need to do it for my parent. I'll also make a new posting for this as it's gonna be a bit complicated.
This life is so funny. We could control a bit if the problems come from us, do something to resolve them... but what if they caused by the others?
Friday, July 27, 2012
super saturday
At last it's saturday...I woke up with such good feelings as I could sleep a lot and do few things that I like. But let me clean up the chicken farm first. LOL.I'll be back after this. Btw, I love the batman movie. It's sooo good.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
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There are lot of things that I would like to write about. But I'm that damn tired........I wish the project will be done tomorrow.......................so I could write with such happy heart. {{tired mode}}
Monday, July 23, 2012
I need a super angle
urgghhhhhhhhhh....I really need super angle. I was out of idea how to solve the problem. I'm in such dead lock!! Damn it. Please my dear angle come to me..I'm thinking on the candidate now...urghhh...bulla...(korean) mujhe patha nehi (hindi) no lo sé (spanish) which it means don't know.
Now...seriously I feel like having an adopted boy friend from my office. LOL. But the main criteria is he must good in COBOL. hurm...the looks...I think most of them are looking fine so the looks are not that big issue. How come I could do the harder task but I'm stuck with this easy one. Damn it. It hurts my pride a lot! ahahhahahaha..
Now...seriously I feel like having an adopted boy friend from my office. LOL. But the main criteria is he must good in COBOL. hurm...the looks...I think most of them are looking fine so the looks are not that big issue. How come I could do the harder task but I'm stuck with this easy one. Damn it. It hurts my pride a lot! ahahhahahaha..
Sunday, July 22, 2012
A Serious Posting: Private Life
Hurmm...where should I start with? Seriously! My heart bleeds whenever I think about this. I think it's fine for me to put it here as this blog is a very private one (only 2 friends know that this blog is mine) but still if they check at my FB account info. If they don't..well they will not know. & I even doesn't optimize this blog so it won't be SEO friendly.
I think I could not be able to bear if my friend is being tortured by people around. It's not that my friend is a perfect person ever. No one does. I'm not asking any friend of mine in this world to be perfect. Just stay the way you are cuz you are uniquely of your own.
I have a friend who is being the main content of gossip especially few months back. They want to know this..that..Hurmm..I feel so uncomfortable with this situation especially when I had to give my ears to listen those and they did ask to me to dig some..I couldn't understand why they insisted about this till make it as a big issue.
I tried to make one of them to understand the situation by saying "what if you are in her situation..this & that etc". But I think my effort in vain. For me, of course as a friend we want to know about the thing that happen to our friend but if our friend wants to hide it...she must have her own personal reason.
Everybody in this world needs to protect themselves. I still remember when I was in 20. I did couple with my ex for almost 10 years. He's totally a nice guy. But I make it as a secret from my mummy. The secret remains till now on..till I broke up with him. Why I need to be that secretive with my own mummy?
Well, I was thinking to reveal it until the day he will propose to me. One final confirmation. I was thinking if I broke up with him, I don't have to bear to such question or comments from the others. Why you broke up..wut happen exactly and one of the most famous quotation " I told you before he's a bad guy".
These kind of words won't make us feel better but more misery. If we are in that situation, of course it's gonna be so painful...so hard to breath well & etc..it's not the right time to talk about those...it will make me worsen. It will tear a part my heart piece by piece.
I guess my prediction was right. I did break up with him as his family arranged his wedding.
Obviously it's so damn unbearable till I feel like asking a big truck to hit me till I couldn't remember any single memory about our relationship. I need my very own space to console my own self. It's nice if we have the second ears but wut if our friend comes with the hurtful words??
I'm totally thankful to god to make me stand with it. It was so hard but at least I have to deal with my own self. I don't have to deal with my friends..my mummy, my daddy or even my brother. I overcome everything by my own except there is only one of my friend who knew it. It's enough to get hurt by my ex but I could not afford to get any more hurt from the others.
As for my friend, I will never ever force her by asking those hurtful questions. It's not that I don't want to know about it but I think it the best effort that I could give to my friend in order to make her feel ease. Of course I'm so damn free to be the 2nd shoulder to all my friends.
The best thing that I could do for her is I pray that she will be happy for ever after & of course she could find her Mr right.
It's not only for her..but it applies to all my friends. I'm trying my best to understand all of them.
I did share this idea to one person but I think she against it. Well I think most of people against my idea..hurmm...or is it becuz I'm that secretive person?
I think I could not be able to bear if my friend is being tortured by people around. It's not that my friend is a perfect person ever. No one does. I'm not asking any friend of mine in this world to be perfect. Just stay the way you are cuz you are uniquely of your own.
I have a friend who is being the main content of gossip especially few months back. They want to know this..that..Hurmm..I feel so uncomfortable with this situation especially when I had to give my ears to listen those and they did ask to me to dig some..I couldn't understand why they insisted about this till make it as a big issue.
I tried to make one of them to understand the situation by saying "what if you are in her situation..this & that etc". But I think my effort in vain. For me, of course as a friend we want to know about the thing that happen to our friend but if our friend wants to hide it...she must have her own personal reason.
Everybody in this world needs to protect themselves. I still remember when I was in 20. I did couple with my ex for almost 10 years. He's totally a nice guy. But I make it as a secret from my mummy. The secret remains till now on..till I broke up with him. Why I need to be that secretive with my own mummy?
Well, I was thinking to reveal it until the day he will propose to me. One final confirmation. I was thinking if I broke up with him, I don't have to bear to such question or comments from the others. Why you broke up..wut happen exactly and one of the most famous quotation " I told you before he's a bad guy".
These kind of words won't make us feel better but more misery. If we are in that situation, of course it's gonna be so painful...so hard to breath well & etc..it's not the right time to talk about those...it will make me worsen. It will tear a part my heart piece by piece.
I guess my prediction was right. I did break up with him as his family arranged his wedding.
Obviously it's so damn unbearable till I feel like asking a big truck to hit me till I couldn't remember any single memory about our relationship. I need my very own space to console my own self. It's nice if we have the second ears but wut if our friend comes with the hurtful words??
I'm totally thankful to god to make me stand with it. It was so hard but at least I have to deal with my own self. I don't have to deal with my friends..my mummy, my daddy or even my brother. I overcome everything by my own except there is only one of my friend who knew it. It's enough to get hurt by my ex but I could not afford to get any more hurt from the others.
As for my friend, I will never ever force her by asking those hurtful questions. It's not that I don't want to know about it but I think it the best effort that I could give to my friend in order to make her feel ease. Of course I'm so damn free to be the 2nd shoulder to all my friends.
The best thing that I could do for her is I pray that she will be happy for ever after & of course she could find her Mr right.
It's not only for her..but it applies to all my friends. I'm trying my best to understand all of them.
I did share this idea to one person but I think she against it. Well I think most of people against my idea..hurmm...or is it becuz I'm that secretive person?