oh darling..please don't fail

Urgh..I'm so scared now on...The job is running for more than 3 hours..please..please JCP0569U darling..don't fail..LOLOL...mummy is so tired already. LOL

There are two possibilities..whether it will hit space error or more time consumption which I hope it won't be that long as of course they don't want the time completion difference will be so obvious compare to the existing one.

It bcuz the other jobs that depend on this job needs to wait it to be completed first....urghh..please...please...I'm so damn scared.

I'm on picnic

yeah...I'm having my super picnic now on. yup..super picnic..build up the tent..sitting on the wood block while having a cup of hot coffee. The breeze is so refreshing. Super nice..I couldn't describe it with any single word.
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But unfortunately, the cool breeze is coming from my white USB fan..the coffee is the cold nescafe from the pantry..and the wood block is my office's chair. Damn..I spend my lovely weekend here...having the picnic in my office. LOL.

I'm doing the system testing now..It requires such a big space...The project is not that hard at all but the testing kills me as we need to test it with the production data that contains millions of customer record! So this job was failed for so many times as it required the huge space that couldn't be met.

One of the hardest part is...I have to wait around..at least 1 hour and 45 minutes before it hit error..but normally it will take more than 2 hours. just imagine..I spent like 2 hours ++ and it ended with error..

1 job ~ 3 hours...so in one day I could perform the testing for 2 times only.. 

I did this testing for 1 week and half already...Please...I wish this testing will be ended today successfully so I could implement the project.

Seriously, I wish..I could spend my time with any friend of mine for some leisure chat...maybe some movies..window shopping..or karaoke to test our lovely voice for Celine Dion or Whitney songs . LOL.

I wish..

Wut a luck!

I went out to test drive my car yesterday. It's my 1st ever after 7 years. Damn it. If it's not bcuz of that accident, I must be a pro now on! After having that scary moment driving the car, I went home. I accidentally left the phone on the back seat. I realized about it right after I went out from the car but my brother drove too fast!

The phone numbers that being stuck inside my brain are my mum & mine. That's it...I tried to call her by going to the mini shop down stair.. asking the favor from the store keeper. I told her " I'll buy $5 reload & I'll make a call from your phone". The lady was so nice. She did let me use it freely although I did insist to buy the reload.

I made many calls to my cell & my mummy..but it's in vain as no one picked up the call. I sent a text to my mummy. But no reply. I was out of idea but I gave that lady $3 although I just used around $1. She refused but I put the money and went out straight away. So she couldn't return the money as there were so many people there. 

I couldn't sleep for the whole night cuz I was thinking some people might look inside my car from the window as the tinted is not that dark. Normally people will break into the car if they could find valuable stuff inside. It's 95% positive! 

I was thinking if the car is getting broken....

1. I have to buy a new Iphone!  I think I need to buy it directly from here this time which is so XXXXXXXXX --> expensive. LOL. Yes, I can have an Iphone in such cheaper price but....I have to be in the contract with the telco. That's the thing that I hate most. It's gonna be so expensive here if we buy one empty Iphone without any telco package. 

2. I have to repair my broken car. I think the cost will be at least $600.

If that happen I'm gonna  be super broke this month as I have some other super extra expenses this month. Besides, I want to make some extra saving. Hehe  I couldn't sleep at all last night bcuz of that. 

In the next morning, I ran to the office as I'm gonna have my personal phone there. I tried to call my mummy but...her phone was off! OMG! I was so damn stuck and I suddenly remember about my mum's new second number. I tried to open my mail from the pc but the connection got blocked. urgghh..

While I was so stuck I saw my friend came to the office. I know very well that she has an internet connection from her smart phone. But I simply too shy to ask her favor as she used to help me lot..Besides I know very well she needs her internet to download her big files. She only has 1 G quota.. Although my personal mail is small but I'm kind of afraid if that small amount will make insufficient data quota for her files. It's gonna be so hard to her. So..it's a big no..

 Eventually I took a cab to come back to my house and opened the email. I got the number...but I burnt almost $40 for that email....bcuz I took cab for 3 times..but at least I'm not making the tense to the others. It's about me..myself. 

At last, I could reach my mummy via her 2nd number. She accidentally left her phone at our other house. urghhh..So I could reach my brother & I planned to get a cab. But another friend of mine insisted to help me by driving me there. So I agreed at last. 

When I went there-- around 12.30, I looked at my car..the iphone was so obvious laying on the back seat. But super thanks to god...no one did notice it although it's too obvious....I felt so much relief...the only word that could be uttered is "thank you lord...". 

One of the god's promise, he won't ever test you on something that is beyond you or..in the other word "he won't test you unless you could take the test". In this case I couldn't afford to take it mentally if I lost the phone & my car is being broken. 

God never ever forget us in wut ever the situation is but we are the one who always forget him...

Wut we have..wut they have..

I was blog walking last night and I found the article that shared his friend's experience when he went to some countries. I think it's kind of interesting as we used to "sigh" for this..for that..and almost everything...

I intentionally not to mention where the country is...but the most important part it's not here in Malaysia.I translate one of his experience in this post. 

Here we go..

This was 40 days experience for staying on the mountains  It is an area of ​​high hill about 6,000 feet above the  sea level. It such a cold place and it's getting colder when the night fall. Sometimes the cloud would be moved in from the window and it would go out from the other window! They live in such poverty...The old ladies were washing the clothes in the river..while the kids were giggling happily..

A local dashed to me and asked me to visit some other villagers. "Where do we want to go in this early of morning?' The local guy said "Don't worry it's not far at all".

We got thru some small hills and climb few of them. I was sort of loosing my breath, but the guy remained cool and steady. I said "Wait for me" while gasping the breath. The guys said "no worry it's not that far. It just behind the hill". I was staring at the place that been pointed by him. I whispered in my heart, "It's damn far! ". 

That's how a Malaysian will react if we are facing that situation as we are totally depend on the vehicle to move from one place to another. We arrived at the house about almost half an hour later. The houses there were quite far apart from each other. I took the long breath.. I looked around the house....They were being built on the slope!  They planted tapioca around the houses. They also planted some coffee trees and cucumber. They put some tapioca on the roof top to dry them.

 The host greeted  us warmly especially when they knew the Malaysian visitors were there. The house was so 'simple'. The wall was made by woven bamboos...and the floor was the ground. The windows were being closed at night with some old rice sacks. We sat on wooden benches but actually just an old wood. They served us with cucumber that been cut into small pieces and coffee.

For your info, it's a home made coffee that been pounded from the backyard. I think that's the most tasty dish that they could afford for the guests. I ate them with such smiley but I felt the long deep grief inside my heart . They just ate those in order not to hungry. I asked what's the purpose of the dried cassava outside.

They said it's to make their rice. The tubers were mashed and cooked as the rice. That's their daily food, they only ate rice sometimes. They planted the paddy on the slopes of the hills and mountains but it's only for for sale.

By looking at this situation all my arrogant..my ego were gone. The tears went out uncontrollable.

We are here..live in such luxury.. with beautiful house..nice car..nice clothes..we have ton of foods..While we enjoy our self most here..they are struggling for their life..think on wut should be eaten although it's going to be a tapioca rice.

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It reminds me on myself..I used to claim this..that..why should I stuck with this computer life that makes mylife in such hell. But actually this hard life is such millions time better rather than these people. Thanks god..

Tell me seriously: do you have a boy friend already?

Actually this is a text from my mummy. LOLOL. Oh my dear mummy thanks for your concern. I was pretty scared that she wants to do an arrangement marriage for me. Erkk...NO...please..LOL.

Hurmm..I have few things in my mind. To be very honest, if I could find the right candidate now (I'm not searching the perfect guy but I have few basic criteria which are not that hard to be fulfilled since we are living in 2012!)....I'll stay loyal forever and I promise that I'll shed these stubborn fatty within 3 months! So I'll be that hot gucci mama for you! LOL.

Furthermore, if the guy knows the cardlink system + COBOL very well, I do volunteer to get marry by Dec 31/2012. LOLOLOL.  If he is in the other profession, it's fine -- I love to mix up with the other world..but he needs to wait for at least 9 months...maximum 1 year. LOL.

 Why? I'm in such newbie in this cardlink and COBOL..so I used to be stressed especially when it comes to those complicated projects. Whenever I came home in that situation I was doing on my own things..so if the other half knows about those things he could help me to solve it...LOL..so I won't be in such stress that could effect the family.

Let say the mr hubby doesn't know about my world..so whenever I get that damn stress I don't feel like to talk to anybody. So for sure I'm gonna be drowned with my own problem without cooking for him..this..that...so it's a big NO. It's fine if it's about me my own. But I don't like to make the others in hell..as one of my ambition is to be a gud wife and mummy. Sounds funny eh? LOL. yeah..wut ever..but that's the fact. I don't mind if people wants to call me super odd as we are living in the millennium era.

Hence, I'm taking these time to learn as fast as I could...Wish me luck to find my mr right. LOL

I'm back

I did hibernate for quite some times due to such broken heart. BUT...this is not bcuz I did broke up with a guy. Hell no! LOL. It's bcuz a person did treat me damn harshly at my office. I never did it before and when I asked about it she cursed me. I was so speechless and I got so mad..

When she did it for the first time she did notify by the others. There is no such way that she knew it automatically.

It was my first time, so I'd no idea. I never asked anybody to respect me or treat me super nicely. It's fine enough by not coming with those super rude words. That's it.

Whenever I got that mad my heart shredded into pieces and I rather to cry that long..I won't tell the person that "I'm mad on you". In fact, I'm not mad any longer after I feel that pain..it just the super pain remains in my heart for such a long time. That's the reason why tears couldn't be stopped for the whole Thursday morning. What a drama. I think I'm sort of a drama queen. LOL

I think my mind is more clear so I could start to write again. Seriously there are so much things to be written but when I was in that "dead" mode everything was mixed up and being written in my heart.  I hope none of you guys are in such condition like me :)