I don't understand..

I wasn't be able to go out for lunch within these 2 days. 3 of my office mates complaining me why didn't I go out. It's not that I was not eating but I did take away! They claimed that I used to stress whenever they came to my place. Since I wanted to make the situation to be lighter I told them that I was not that stressed. It just that I was running out of time. But seriously, I have a lot of things to be done!

I had to run 3 batch in 2 days in a row. The thing is AO (atos) has some dead line while me and my second liner also need that region for our testing. I do understand her feelings on chasing the dateline and I also have some other things to be done. So I couldn't let myself stuck with that task alone. 2 main projects, 2 projects (almost done) + 1 small system changes are waiting for me!

I tried my best to explain my situation, I don't want to make the process slower. This is an example if I run the batch & I could complete it at 1.30 pm (without going out for lunch): my user could start to verify the reports at 2 pm right. So at 3.30 pm AO could start their batch then + I could move to my other tasks. That will fasten the time process and ease my working listing!.

The worst part, when we are running the batch, the condition won't be the same. You could not expect that if you did run the job (previously without any error) ..so you won't ever hit any error in the future. No way! There must be some. So it happened to me. One job hit error  8 times!!!! Some other failed for few times as it failed in some different steps.  These are time consuming!

I managed to complete all  in the second day at 1.30 pm. So it's fine as I could take a deep breath to relax after killing my self with so damn many errors!

At 3, AO came to my boss asking her to use the region. Just imagine if I still couldn't finish it. My boss must be in some cynical looks if I was still not completing it..not only my boss but the the AO too. I do care so much about my pride!

They won't ever care on how many batch that I have to deal with! So by finishing those earlier, I didn't have to deal with any one of them.

After lunch...at 2 pm...those waiting projects dashed to me like bullets. They need to be completed by this week. Just imagine, if I still stuck with the batch and the new tasks came like hell so how should I deal with that? I don't stress to do the code but I'm running with the time. I don't understand with them why they insisted like that so the best way was I didn't respond to the argument.

I may do a lot of stupid jokes all the time but I'm so super serious with my life-- my career..my school..& my pride! No matter what stupid things that I did, I won't jeopardize these in any single blink!

update:what makes you happy?

1st of all, sorry as I  couldn't fulfill my promise to write this post on  Saturday as I was so super tired after having my super long window shopping with my Scope's friends (Standard Chartered). We didn't realize that we were there for many hours till we felt that our legs were sort of being broken into 4 parts. LOL. Only then we realized that. Girls.....LOL. Since I was so super tired so I took the whole Sunday to ease my cells & tissues that were being damaged after having that long walk. LOL.

Back to the main topic, What makes you happy? For me I have few listings. It's gonna such long one. Hurm..so let me list the major points that make me happy in this life

• I'm in such smile if I could give every nice thing in this world to my mummy and daddy. I love you guys so much till my last breath. 
• I'm so happy if my friends are happy :) Remember of my quote very well! " If u are sad,u can share it with me.If I'm happy I will share it with u.If u stray from the path, I will scold u. If u make a mistake I will forgive u.If u are in trouble you can rely on me. I want u to love the world and this life!"  p/s this quote is applied to all my friends whenever they are my super old friends or the new one.  I'm not making new friends everyday, so when I make friends..it means I want it to be forever. I'm taking all whether it's the laughter or tears. Hold the hands and grow old together :)
•  I really wish I could be so good in COBOL + the current system that we use now as it's so important for my career. It's bcuz I'm so damn lazy to change my field any longer. I need to focus and I need to boost my career within these 2 years. 1 year is gone already & this is my final destination. ~~~How tragic~~~LOLOL!
• I could come back to the original size..I hope it won't be a false dream as I need the real food whenever I'm super stress like today! LOL + sigh...
• I could be able to finish my driving class as soon as possible!. I'm so lazy + scared. Hey gal, wake up!  I feel like slapping my own cheek. LOL.
• Last but not least, I could find my real Mr right without waiting super long. LOL. For me, marriage it's not only about me (for me it's only 30% but the rest go for my future kids). If I want to bring the new life in this world I must make sure they gonna live in happiness not in any sorrow. I couldn't bear if I bring any tears for those who I love most (my family & friends).
• Unimportant point: I miss my danish + blossom so much! Tsk..tsk..  

So do you have such listings like me or am I being super greedy to grab all those? I don't know but I want them!