I can't control my tears!

Whenever I watched this Eid Commercial advertisement I couldn't control my tears. The story line starts with 2 boys which are best friend live in an orphanage house. One of the boy name as Fizi (blind) and the other one is Ahmad (he's having hearing & speech problem, I think he nearly to deaf that's why he couldn't pronounce the words very well) & only Ahmad could understand what he said very well. I also couldn't understand what he said until the translation was there!

In the night of Eid, everybody was going back to their family except these boys. Ahmad was looking to his old picture and said he misses his mummy. Fizi heard what Ahmad said and asked him to go back to his village to meet Ahamd's mummy.

Since it was the Eid's night so all tickets were gone & there was only 1 train ticket left but they needed 2. So how they could go back to Ahmad's village? Did they manage to meet Ahmad's mummy? Watch this TV commercial :(

 p/s: this commercial comes with the English subs. Besides, these 2 kids are really handicap, they are not actors.

Assalamulaikum = Peace be upon you
Duit Raya = The money that we give to the visitors when they are visiting our home on Eid.
Selamat Hari Raya = Eid Mubarak, it's sort of when people wish the Christmas with merry christmas.
Maaf Zahir & Batin = "I seek forgiveness (from you) physically and spiritually", for Hari Raya is a time to reconcile and renew relationships with others.

**We may did hurt somebody straight away and talked something bad about them in our heart that's why the "I seek forgiveness (from you) physically and spiritually" comes in the wish.

It's NOT Funny Okay!

I wish I could say this to someone but I'm afraid that people will judge me as a person who love to talk at the back but seriously I tried my best to bear on it. But...I think my limit reached at the half already. Someone in my office loves to laugh out of laud (LOL)..but I think the best word is "overacting". She used to do it, normally I'll say to myself "whatever.." and continued on my works. But today she blew my mood!

My place is very near to hers so I could hear every single word. It's fine if it's funny to laugh like that. But hell it's not funny at all! It's sounds totally fake to me. It's more like "roaring". I don't know what she tries to prove to everybody by doing it. & I think it's fine if she does it once or twice...but.............................she did it many many times today. It's totally annoying okay!

Does she thinks it's super cutey to do like that?? Hell no..Seriously it makes me feels so embarrass if I'm being her friend no matter what position that she holds. It's about the attitude.

It distracted me that much especially when I tried to finished my coding where I needed a lot of concentration! There are some people who love to laugh on those non funny things in my office but at least they didn't do it overly till the whole office could hear very well like what she did. She laughed like crazy on the things that were not funny! I saw the other person who was speaking with her was not laughing (in the morning). She just smiled and in the evening those who were talking to her also did laugh a lil bit.

Hurm..this is just my point of view..forget it.

Oh my boss!!!

As I posted previously, I really hate my birthday. A friend of mine also did ask me when it's gonna be. I didn't tell her as I'm quiet 'allergic" to that date. LOL. I also hide mine and tried to delete as many as I could on those previous birthday wishes in my FB.

But.........I think my ambition to hide the historical date destroyed today..when my boss asked about my birthday. It sort of having a big rock stucked to my throat...damn..& she forced me more..making the excuse that it's bcuz I'm part of the team...So wut could I say since the KPI evaluation is coming..I want my bonus..hahahhaha...

With such broken heart...I had to say it   Jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjaannnuary 19. ahahahha...damn it!! The worst part was she ticked on her calendar! Nooo...urgghhhhhh...Btw, I still mad at her as she took me from my previous team where I had to change my sit that I love so it made my world is so silent while I'm working. No more lil chat with my friend in the evening time..no more stupid jokes that could be made whenever I felt so stress! It's super bored....

Mrs D

Having a long term best friend is super nice..I love to live with the same people forever. & I have one best friend which we call as D. We've been friends for more than 11 years.  There were so many bad & good time that we spent together...We did fight once but we made it back after few years.  No one is perfect in this world & I'm not expecting any of my friends to be that saint :)

We did many stupid jokes since we were kiddo till now on. Taking the MC for our final exam..lololol...running away from the campus's guard (riding a motorbike with 3 persons)..lol.shared one packet of instant noodle..playing fire crackers in the campus..& when we got scared if the guard spot us we wore a mask like ninja..ahahahaha..super stupid..and many others..

Whenever I need to laugh or at least to smile, I'll remember those memories. It never fails. LOL. It super nice to have such friends. We know each other's attitude & habits. But.....there is one thing that is not nice of having super long friend......

Since she knows my past habits very very well,  she used to tease me all the time. Sometimes when I want to do new things she won't believe it like "are you sure...(with the sarcastic tune & face..lolol..damn). But it's fine, I like that kind of friendship :)

Strangely, we have the same problem when we are getting older. We need to diet. ahahhahahaha..So we made an agreement to do it for two months. She said we must fine before Jan 1 2013 or we have to wait till 40, so it's gonna be a lot of time for us (sarcastic words..)

I was talking to her on the phone this evening & she told me if it's not working we have to take shower under the bridge. I also told her that we need the friends that are having the good body to pour the water from the bridge. ahahahaha..I have the list. ahaha..

I hope this new diet resolution will work well this time...urghh...As for my friend D, I hope the friendship remains for ever after so do to my other close friends..It's totally nice to have someone that we know very very well..whenever it's good or bad..we still get through it together with such brave hearts...As I always said "hold the hands and let's grow old together" :)

The Hospital Day

I took an EL last Friday because my daddy was admitted to the hospital. He's having some problem with his chest & asthma. It happened bcuz he was a heavy smokers for ages. He's a stubborn man. But he tried to quit within these 2 years. But the damage is there already. For what ever it is I hope he could recover well like before although it's kind of slim hope :(.

Actually it sort of I couldn't go to the hospital that night but since my brother finished his shift early so he could send me there. It's kind of lucky that I was there to take care of him or else it's gonna be worse as his condition was so bad. He needed favor to take his drinking water, to call the doctor and even to press the emergency button.

I saw my daddy was crying few times...urghh..maybe he's regretted for the past :(. It's so tiring as I had to sit on the chair for the whole night and I only slept for few hours since he got some severe asthma attacked for a few times. The only good thing was there were many handsome doctors around. LOLOL.

Moral of the story please...never ever touch the cigarette! Love and protect yourself! I hope my Mr Right is a not a smoker as I have enough with my daddy and brothers. No more smoker man in my life!

1 + 1

I feel like to write for this 1 + 1. This is a serious posting which I'm not making a stupid joke at all. What is the answer of 1+1? Obviously it's 2 right. Let me make one example. Some students may want to change this reality. Let say they believe 1 + 1 = 11.  These students even could make 100 followers to believe that 1+1 = 11. They also could force many people to say yes with them. But at the end of the day the truth is still the truth. They will fail in math, physic or even chemistry exam if they insist with it. This truth couldn't be changed although they split the earth to be two or kill 1 million of people.

This analogy could be applied to our daily. I hope all of us could find the right answer in our life and never fail to get into the right way. Think.

The dream comes true!

It's been one week since my last post. My computer wasn't be able to be restarted! It's my fault as I was so lazy to shut down the machine. So I did hibernate it for a very long time. Sorry my dear baby! LOL. I promise I won't ever do it again as 85% of my important activities were shut down due to this problem. As a solution I burnt the whole night to restore the setting to be like brand new & I lost all the data...Sigh~~ I need to do the data recovery in order to get all my research paper..my web development job..and etc!

Back to the main topic, I supposed to do my presentation on last Friday which was 21 September. Since my  dear "baby was sick" so it disturbed my preparation for 95% as I couldn't read the documents from my lappy. What a perfect timing baby!! LOL. To be very honest I was thinking to buy one external hard drive & transfer all those as my main backup. I'm damn regretted not to follow my instinct. It's not the first time..so guys..follow your instinct as it may help you a lot in the future!

Since I could do nothing about it so I went to the office in such early time and went back in a bit late. When the day was around the corner I wasn't be able to think that much...I even slept like 3 hours..damn.

On Wednesday's night I felt the most heat as I had only one day remaining. I was saying to myself .. "I wish
my boss will take MC on Friday so they have to postpone it..they are going to postpone it for two weeks!"
Sometimes I felt that it's not nice to wish somebody to get sick so I really hope they will postpone it for some urgent meeting. I also wished like this.."on Thursday they will say..sorry we have to make it in the next 2 weeks as she has a very urgent meeting" That's better rather than hoping my boss to get MC. LOL.

I had to submit my final slide on that day (Thursday) and performed some demo to my lead. When I bumped to her she did say "did you prepare..it's going to be tomorrow ok!" I did send it and she was asking me 'do you want to do it now?' I said to her "give me one hour to make one short note"

I felt so tensed and seriously if I was being stabbed with a Kris (Malay dagger with a straight or wavy blade),I'm very sure that no blood will be shed as I felt like I had no more blood in my vein! hahahhaa.

At 4.45 pm she asked me how? I was saying to her that I will try my best. At 4.50 pm, she called me once again and I said to her 10 minutes as I promised her 1 hour. Suddenly she said "it's ok, I want to postpone the presentation" ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh shit! I think my soul was almost flew away. LOLOL. After 5 minutes she told me that the presentation will be done in the next two weeks.

My wish was granted for almost 90% as I hope my boss will take MC in that day. I wish it's for 2 weeks and yes it is..I think it's pretty freaking weird right to get the thing that we really wish for almost 100% and to be very honest it happened for many times. Seriously sometimes I feel that scared as I'm afraid it's a false wish and it will lead a bad situation for me. Hurm..I wish I made another wishes in that time like having 1 million dollars instantly. LOL. I told it to my friend and she said if you get it give some to me. I said I'll split to half. LOL.

Anyway, I feel so relief as my computer is fine now on & I could do the preparation such such peace in my mind. I hope my family, friends and every one of you will have such peace of mind for your daily life too :)