What should I do?

hurmm..my friend's flight will be tomorrow at 6. I really want to give the last good bye..as she's the only person who made me felt good when I was so new...(I did post wut happen back then).

She will go back to her country for good tomorrow  I met her just now, she gave me some of her stuff. Actually it's not that I really need those, but it's bcuz she's my friend. So as a sign of appreciating her I said yes. 

Since she's going for good, I think it's not appropriate if I'm not going to the airport to give the one final good bye. I told her about my plan and she said I don't have to be there as it's far from here which is will be for one hour. 

I don't mind at all on the timing but I do care most on my friend!

I don't know whether I should go there tomorrow or nope as I'm totally afraid that she might need her own privacy with her boy friend although I plan to be there for around 10 minutes only. I'm not that tough to be there till the end. Besides,I met her just now..so I really don't want to make her feels that being disturbed by me.. 

I don't know wut should I do then?? Should I go there? I'm so confused..

The stupid joke

So this is the day...where my friend is gone already. I went to the office with such empty heart. She helped me a lot, more than my 2nd liner...she's the only person who being nice to me when I was new..So obviously I'm in such broken heart when she's gone. She gave me her stuff..and it makes more sad..super shut down. Seriously, I tried my best to control my tears since yesterday! But I'm not that strong, I was in tears a lil bit for the whole day. Just lil bit tears but my heart bleeds very well. I felt like this when I did fight with Mrs D many years back then.

It's totally sad..but if this is the best for her..if this could make her happy at the most..of course I will say yes..& I'm so happy for her :)

When I came to the office this morning..with that super empty heart..my 2nd liner asked me "how r u?". She kept asking me few times of it. Since my tears was sort of kept coming...I think I couldn't be able to let the others notice about it.

So, I made some stupid jokes to her which she laughed a lot and laud. Thanks god the 'talent' was still there although I got such a rough day..battling with my own heart. Seriously..while I was joking to her..seeing her laughed..& I laughed too..but my heart was bleeding heavily.

I think I could never be able not to come to the air port to give the final good bye. I always be with my friends till the end. As for my friend..I'll always be your friend no matter you are succeed or nope in your plan. For wut ever it is..I stick with my promises to you..and you always be my friend for ever after..