Shut Down...

It such a terrible week! Before this I used to seek something to shake my brain well but I think this time we could call it as TSUNAMI! LOL + sigh~~..yeah..I've got what I want..So to all of you, be careful on what you wish for! Hurm..I was showered with lot of works..bad news---for the presentation & I just got the latest bad news today.

My friend told me that she's going to resign today. It such a big news to me. To be very honest my mood did shut down since that time. I tried to be cool but I don't know whether it looked that way or nope.

She's a nice friend, but obviously no one is perfect in this world. & as I said I never ever expect that my friend is gonna be that super saint or perfect. No one does in this world. To all my friends, just stay the way you are. Every one of you are uniquely your self.

Seriously, I feel that down cuz she's the only person who made me felt good when I was so super new to the office. I was so damn lonely..I kept thinking why I should be shifted to this bank out of sudden when I supposed to go to Standard Chartered..I supposed to be with my other close friends there..the olive & sisters did bully me around with their attitude as they think I just earned my degree in such late (they think I'm super stupid!)..my second liner also didn't give me such welcome to the team when she gave me some nasty look & words for our job's related...no one did...except her...I owe her that much!!

Super thanks to my ex boss(I was working with her for our previous project) + friend..Million of thanks! She told me that she's too tired. Actually I have my own opinion but I'm totally speechless! I think it's fine to express what goes in my mind here as it's a very super duper private blog. There are only 2 friends that know about this blog..but I'm not so sure too whether they read this blog or nope as I didn't tell them.

For me something big happen to her which is so big..makes her feel out of energy..tiresome...99.99% +ve for that. I really want to ask her what happen but I couldn't afford to do so as I couldn't see her in such sad + tears. We were enjoying our lunch so I couldn't let her appetite went away if I asked that question. No way! 

She must be in such broken heart + tears already. So I don't want her to cry more. Hence, the best thing that I could do in that time was I gave her my courage & some info on the things that she plans to do. But seriously, I was so down as I will lost a nice friend. It must be something bad..seriously. I trust my instinct!

I wish I could tell her directly "Just tell me anything..I could be your 2nd shoulder any time..any where..I'm here with you for the laughter & tears..Your secret save with me for ever after!" I wish..but I'm kind of afraid she will feel worse..no...please..no..

I really hope that she could revert her decision..but it's too impossible...I think she needs her own time & space to cool down & ease her mind. I do understand that...as a friend I want the best thing for her..so do to my other friends.

Seriously, I'm so glad to be the second ears if that could ease her burden..it just like when I felt so miserable when I was new..no one gave me comfort except her! I'm not making new friends everyday & easily..but once I make friend..I want it to be forever...no matter how bad the situation is..no matter how millions miles away you are..you are always be my friend & I'm giving you my shoulder to rely on it!