"I don't have any intention to be your friend"

When I was in the very first day in my office two girls did approach me and asked me to join them for lunch. Ok that's nice. There were few other girls from other department. I introduced myself to them. Just simple introduction. I told them that I just grad and I was working before this. Do I have to do such detail introduction? They will think I'm a snobbish girl then. So let it be simple.

One of the question from one of them. So you got diploma from UTM? (It was my first school.) You got the degree from UiTM then?

Well, what should I say? Was I supposed to say?? "noooo...I am a Master holder" Is that the appropriate answer? I never want to be assumed as snobbish and nothing like that in my mind. I was choking a bit and I just said yes to their question. Nothing need to be butchered around. 

The "atmosphere" was changing day by day. It was the 2 of them + 1 of their friend. So it was the 3 olive sisters.

I had nothing to deal with them in term of the job in that time since I was still in the different team. So what had I done to them? I never spit any thing about myself except that short introduction and I used to listen more than talking while I was with them.

They used to give me such cynical look & words. What ever came from my mouth they will try to make it as no. What did I do to them? They even laugh that I am fat while I was eating (we were talking about science center that has zero gravity point). Damn.


That's so super nice & I wish I could say "are you stupid? what did you learn in your physic class?" I wish to come out with those words in front of their faces.

I still remember when I was asking them where they live at. I think that's a normal question when we know someone for new especially they are my office mate. THEY WERE ANSWERING IT IN HALF HEART!

They looked to each other and answered it such way of they didn't want to say where they lived. Damn! They were kind of afraid  if I asked to live them? HELL NO! Never! I rather to wake up that early from my previous home to go to my office although it's that damn far from my office.


It's so obvious and only stupid person could think positively from the situation. We could measure on people's honesty just from their gestures, looks and words! 


Many of my office mate and even my boss asked me why "I don't stay together with them?" or at least stay in the same block so I could go to office with them together. LOL. A big gulp for my throat. What should I tell them?  should I tell them they even didn't want to tell me where they live..then how could I stay with them??


If you are in my shoe what you gonna feel? 

The day passed by and the hated faces came along. It's so bad especially it becuz I was with them while I was having my lunch. It's the time that we were eating & to be very honest I felt that I couldn't chew the food by having such situation.


The worst time was my lunch as I had to go with them. Sometimes, I went out with my Scope friends although it's so far just for the sake to avoid them. I need to enjoy my time and I need to eat peacefully.

I was thinking that hard what did I do to them? I never be snobbish in front of them, I just told them that I just grad & I was working before. I didn't have any connection in term of job with them. So what was that?

I do understand that no one is perfect in this world even me myself...sometimes..did hurt people around me without any intention.


So I was telling myself it's fine maybe they need some times to adjust themselves with me. But I'm only an ordinary gal who has a heart and limit. So when I reached the max there will be no other chance. One day I just wanted to try on one thing. I told one of the gal (which is the nicest among of the 3) a lil bit about myself.

Since then they became nicer to me and sometimes they went to be that nice till I felt so scared. It's so strange as they used to be so mean to me. The best thing that I could guess is maybe they think I super stupid that's why I was working first and only then further my degree. Sigh~~~

Come on, should I tell you that I'm doing this..that...my research was about steganography and I did invent the latest method to sustain the image quality so the secret messages that being inserted to the image could not be detected that easy. I also insert the high security to the image. The best part is the method that I invented is the first ever in the world.

I used to work with web system + server..SMS system development..I'm a CCNA holder.. this..that..bla...bla..so now I'm working working with mainframe hence it will be perfect for in the next 2 yrs as I do have enough experience in those stuff and combine with a bit of old dinosaur  technology. bla...bla..sort of...

Am I have to spit it out all these to you and only then you want to be my friend?? This is so bullshit ok! 

I never ever wish someone to treat me special but I just want to be treated normally as I'm just a simple person. I love to make some stupid things..stupid jokes..

For me I don't mind on who ever my friends are...as long as they are personally nice. Since they did bite me very well till I couldn't hold my heart well so....the pain and anger are always in my heart. I'm always like this..I'm giving the chance to the max but once the max is there...there will be no other for the future. 


So obviously, I don't have any intention to be friends with them especially the worst 2..olive & her sister in the infra side. With this kind of thing, I never regard them as my friend. The funny thing is that olive did the friend's request in the facebook.


Hello...facebook is only for my friends. No outsiders are allowed. Well, I really hope this thing could be her biggest lesson in relationship's matter + never ever do the same thing like you did to me to the others. Treat people with respect although maybe the are just cleaner in our office!