A Serious Posting: Private Life

Hurmm...where should I start with? Seriously! My heart bleeds whenever I think about this. I think it's fine for me to put it here as this blog is a very private one (only 2 friends know that this blog is mine) but still if they check at my FB account info. If they don't..well they will not know. & I even doesn't optimize this blog so it won't be SEO friendly.

I think I could not be able to bear if my friend is being tortured by people around. It's not that my friend is a perfect person ever. No one does. I'm not asking any friend of mine in this world to be perfect. Just stay the way you are cuz you are uniquely of your own.

I have a friend who is being the main content of gossip especially few months back. They want to know this..that..Hurmm..I feel so uncomfortable with this situation especially when I had to give my ears to listen those and they did ask to me to dig some..I couldn't understand why they insisted about this till make it as a big issue.

I tried to make one of them to understand the situation by saying "what if you are in her situation..this & that etc". But I think my effort in vain. For me, of course as a friend we want to know about the thing that happen to our friend but if our friend wants to hide it...she must have her own personal reason. 


Everybody in this world needs to protect themselves.  I still remember when I was in 20. I did couple with my ex for almost 10 years. He's totally a nice guy. But I make it as a secret from my mummy. The secret remains till now on..till I broke up with him. Why I need to be that secretive with my own mummy?


Well, I was thinking to reveal it until the day he will propose to me. One final confirmation. I was thinking if I broke up with him, I don't have to bear to such question or comments from the others. Why you broke up..wut happen exactly and one of the most famous quotation " I told you before he's a bad guy". 


These kind of words won't make us feel better but more misery. If we are in that situation, of course it's gonna be so painful...so hard to breath well & etc..it's not the right time to talk about those...it will make me worsen. It will tear a part my heart piece by piece.

I guess my prediction was right. I did break up with him as his family arranged his wedding.

Obviously it's so damn unbearable till I feel like asking a big truck to hit me till I couldn't remember any single memory about our relationship. I need my very own space to console my own self. It's nice if we have the second ears but wut if our friend comes with the hurtful words??

I'm totally thankful to god to make me stand with it. It was so hard but at least I have to deal with my own self. I don't have to deal with my friends..my mummy, my daddy or even my brother. I overcome everything by my own except there is only one of my friend who knew it. It's enough to get hurt by my ex but I could not afford to get any more hurt from the others.

As for my friend, I will never ever force her by asking those hurtful questions. It's not that I don't want to know about it but I think it the best effort that I could give to my friend in order to make her feel ease. Of course I'm so damn free to be the 2nd shoulder to all my friends.

The best thing that I could do for her is I pray that she will be happy for ever after & of course she could find her Mr right.

It's not only for her..but it applies to all my friends. I'm trying my best to understand all of them.

I did share this idea to one person but I think she against it. Well I think most of people against my idea..hurmm...or is it becuz I'm that secretive person?